So I am to begin a new blog! I know I have this and my stories and that may seem a bit much, however it’s important to write this story down.
There is a part of me that I have been keeping under wraps for a long time and it is the opposite of the me I write about here and so that story doesn’t really belong here….
Mistress suggested that I keep it separate so that it does not interfere or muddle what I write here. I think that makes perfect sense.
I have spent all my life hiding who I am and now I have fully embraced my submissive side I do not want to lose that. I have therefore spent the last while denying that other part of me. But recently Mistress and I have been discussing it and will begin to explore this side of me when I return home as it will fulfil her needs also. Or so I thought.
The other day I was in the kitchen making haggis (as you do when in Scotland!) and I facetimed her. I had a very large knife in my hand as I cut turnip and potatoes and chatted to her on my iPad. I could see her eyes shining as I spoke. She looked so beautiful!
I leant over the iPad as she said it was was large, and so playfully I held the point to my neck. The change that came over her was amazing and it spurred me on as I then held the blade to my neck smiling down at her. She asked to see me and I lifted my t-shirt and flashed my tits at her and then without thinking held the blade against my nipple.
Calling me a cunt I realised that I could take this further and placed the blade down my jeans and against my cunt, raising my neck back as the cold of the blade began to turn me on! I wanted to come against it, but as I looked down I could see she had gone all subby on me!
I played with her then, watching her eyes as she floated. She looked amazing and if I had been with her, I would’ve fucked her hard then. Hurting her badly, I have no doubt! I wanted to fuck every hole she had, making her scream my name as she drifted in that fucking oh so happy place that I love so much.
I have no words for how I feel about that yet, but I hope to very soon. My head is a jumble and I know hers is too. It wasn’t meant to happen yet and I thought I might struggle to take her there. She has not been there for so long and had been thinking of how she could satisfy that particular need of hers since she thought I had no interest in taking her there.
But oh my god don’t I just! I can’t wait to get home and make her so happy, as she does me! I love her, she is my Mistress and I am her top!
My new blog will be about just that! So there may not be daily posts here as I intend to ensure that my Lady is so very happy for the rest of my life. So I want to write about that and how beautiful she is as she floats and looks out at me listening for my words. I need no other, for with her I have everything my heart desires.
Will you come along for the ride? Watch for my new blog in the coming weeks!
P.S. Oh and in case you were wondering – I will blog later today about my reading at the Festival of Erotic Arts and the weekend of awesome that ensued and I may just post the video!
P.P.S. Here is the new blog

I have so much to say but fail to find the words! I love you my wonderful girl – things are just starting to get interesting!
I can’t wait to see your new blog up and running, to see you embracing all that you truly are, my evil cunt you xxx
Ha ha yes I am slightly evil! But I am also your girl and slightly sweet! I am hoping that it is a good combination! xXx
You will forever be my girl and I’ll have you evil or sweet because it’s who you are xxx
I love you xXx
WOW, interesting developments and I will surely be here to read the new blog
Rebel xox
Thanks Rebel! Am excited! Been something that I wasn’t going to blog about for obvious reasons but now I can-am actually in the middle of my very first post right now! Be glad to have you along! xxx