The prompt for this week is this picture, and although I have been really really busy I really wanted to write about this since it is a hard limit for me.
Robert Lenkiwicz
I wrote a story last year about masturbating for a Mistress (see it here) and as usual my stories are based on my life, some truer than others. So of course I have been slightly adverse to my Mistress reading too many of my stories for that reason, she is sadistic enough without seeing too much of what I have already done and what is inside my head! Today she began to read them in her time zone so I am now becoming slightly worried! This particular thing of mine has however now been tackled, just before I left to come to the UK for a visit.
We hadn’t already done this before then and although I love to watch someone masturbating, I have a huge issue with someone watching me. I struggle to come and nerves and my shyness get the better of me! YES! I am VERY shy!! I don’t care what you think if you have met me, I am very shy! So just before I left she told me to play with myself and I said no after a lot of humming and hawing. She wasn’t unhappy with me but she wasn’t happy either. Then I felt ashamed that I had said no to her.
It is a big thing for me to let my Mistress down and as I lay there on the bed looking at her with an obvious look of disappointment on her face, I struggled with what is a hard limit for me and letting her down. She asked me again if I was actually saying no to her and shook her head when I said I was. I could feel my face redden and my whole body blush as she stared at me. I spoke about my story and having written about it because it is a big thing for me to do and I have struggled with it in the past.
Before I knew where I was, my hand was between my legs and I began to play with myself. I had until that point still had no intention of even trying it never mind actually coming. I still have no idea what made me change my mind, although the shame I felt at saying no was destroying me and I suspect that along with my recent behaviour before we got together, it was just too much for me to do to her. As I played with myself and looked at my Mistress I found myself getting wetter and wetter. But, I didn’t think I was ever going to come in a million years. She being the most wonderful wonderful Mistress that she is joined her hand with mine and began to help me. Kissing me she told me she never said she wouldn’t help and thanked me for doing that for her as we both fucked me hard and I came just as hard.
The night before I left to go to London again for the London Fetish Fair I was 0n facetime saying good night to her having been out with an old friend drinking all night. She got me all horny and before I knew where I was my hand was between my legs and I was fucking myself as we spoke. Although she couldn’t see what I was doing other than a quick peek I gave her, I was actually playing for her and I know she enjoyed watching my face as I came very very quietly which she didn’t know I could do. I always make a huge noise when we are together, but I can come and unless you know me you wouldn’t know! My first Mistress liked to whisper things in my ear and say trigger words to me which would make me come without her touching me and I had to learn to keep quiet for that reason, as it was never good to make a noise in public really!!
So, the next time I play with myself for my Mistress I will be going it alone, as in this picture and I want to make sure I come too – I wonder if I will be able to get over this fear I have of being too exposed?
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I am always proud of you pushing yourself further and further to please me.
I am aware you can be quite, you were painfully quite after we went and saw the avengers.
I will have you cum for me often and you will not always enjoy when or where, I don’t even care if you are quite, I actually would get more enjoyment if you werent.
Hurry home sweet subby you xxx
If I could find a way of speeding up time for you I would, at any cost! I miss you! xXx
The costs are too great my girl, you still have your dreams to come true before you can come home to me xxx
Like you I am very self conscious of doing that in front of someone else. So don’t think you are alone in that at all. I am glad you felt comfortable enough to finally do it though and enjoyed it so much. I can also be quiet as a mouse when I need to be..
Yes I think this is a hard one for a lot of people – thanks for commenting. I like to be quiet as much as I like someone else being quiet, that whole control aspect turns me on!
Phoenix
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I too am very self-conscious to do it in front of anyone, even my Husband, but when I close my eyes, I can shut Him out and concentrate on the movements of my hand(s). I know He would love me to masturbate in front of an ‘audience’… I don’t think I will ever be able to do so.
It sounds as if your Mistress will guide you into feeling more at ease to play in front of her…
Rebel xox
Yes I was the same with my ex of 13 years, my Mistress however has had me do this twice already in such a short time! I certainly feel safe pushing boundaries with her, she is an amazing woman who keeps me safe during it all!
Pxxx
As you know I have written a fantasy around this subject for my post today. Does the idea of it make me hot? Yes… Could I actually do it? I have no idea…. I think I might bottle it to be honest.
I have certainly masturbated for Sir… many many times. That is something a long distance relationship teaches you well I guess and even thought we are not together he still likes to make me masturbate for his viewing pleasure. I love it when he is so close to me, watching my cunt, that I can feel his breathe on my thigh.
Mollyxxx
It’s certainly exciting, I did love it when I got going! Not sure I could ever do anything like in your story, but the idea so very much excited the exhibitionist in me!!
Pxxx
Hi.
I, too, have a ‘thing’ about self pleasuring with someone else watching, it feels like I can’t escape into my little horny mind the same way I can when I’m on my own, and I also dislike how vulnerable I feel with that other person there.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, I enjoyed reading
Flip x
Thanks for commenting – it is a very hard thing to do and I only now realise that there are so many others have a difficulty with it. Thanks again for taking the time to read and comment. Phoenix x
In the past I have also had issues with regard to masturbating in front of a partner, and would find difficulty orgasming or even becoming aroused. In time, I became more comfortable doing it. Practice makes perfect!
Ha ha same sentiment as my Mistress has! xxx
I really felt for you reading this. I think that it is something that can just be so private and personal, it can takes a lot to share it with someone, even if you trust them. Sounds like you have a good Mistress to help you through it.
I am so very lucky to have her in my life and yes she is the most amazing woman I have ever had the pleasure to meet. Thanks for commenting x
I like the fact that Sir blindfolds me, it makes me feel freer about doing such things…
Yes I like blindfolds for the same reason but the whole point of this is for her to see my whole face when I come. I am getting better and I am sure it will become easier in time. And… what an enjoyable thing to practice really!! Ha ha
Phoenix
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When you find the confidence in yourself to let go you will feel extreme liberation. I love to masturbate in front of others, I have even done so on one night stands! After all you are the one having the fun the others merely watching…….
Keep going with the little steps to get there you will LOVE it when you do.
~Mia~ xx
Ha ha I will Ma’am and I’m sure I will grow to love it! Hee hee xxx