This week has been amazing and for the first time in a long while I want to share my life with someone! I have spent every night with my Mistress and it’s been so wonderful and a taste of things to come. It’s made me want more in a very greedy way! I am not normally like that either, preferring to have just enough of something to make me want it and not get bored. I want her all the time. I don’t think I will ever tire of hearing her say my name as I make her come again and again.
I don’t even care if I come, just that she does, it makes me so happy to see her smile and see her face as I take her over the edge and then again and again and then again, until she stills me and gives herself a chance to breathe! I could dance it delights me so! Do you know what I mean? Am I adequately getting my joy over? I’ve not felt this joy since my first Mistress, or for that matter the total selflessness of making someone else so happy. Don’t get me wrong, I pout when she takes me to the edge and leaves me there with a giggle which she is want to do! A lot! (I forget to ask to come! Then I get frustrated as she does it again and again, teaching me to ask. I eventually think to, as she laughs at me and then makes me come in seconds! Sigh)
So tonight we play properly for what will be the first time, yet I know it wont feel like that! It will feel like we have been doing it forever. I ache for her touch today, the day is already dragging and it is only 9.30am. It will be hard to be apart for nearly 5 weeks when I am on holiday. I will think of tonight I know and ache for it again as I have for the time we have been together. Tonight she says will be just a promise of things to come. Tonight those there will only share part of our moment, but they will see what belongs to her.
She is proud of me, I don’t get that! She thinks I’m beautiful and sexy and adores and loves me. I don’t get any of it! I accept it though. And when I am with her and on my knees looking up into her eyes, I don’t care that she is so much younger than me, she is my Mistress and knows best! She has been right all along, it works regardless of what my mind tells me.
Tomorrow night I get to play with a toy of mine hopefully, after the casserole and games night, to please my Mistress the best way I know! I used to have a flair for it and I think I still will, after all you never forget how to ride a bike do you? Ha ha ha ha! Knowing me I will get toppy too, and my wonderful Mistress allows that which is even more wonderful since it now does not interfere with my submission. As soon as we stop I am back to subby me again with no worries of losing myself again for the next 28 years! I get the best of both worlds with her and all my needs met. I am so grateful to have found her after waiting for so long.