So last night with a day off today for Anzac day I was around at a friends (my sister in kink to be precise) to play games. It was another friends birthday and I had got him a digital radio (Did I ever mention that my first job from school was in a radio station as the record librarian? I also was a presenter eventually too! ) Anyway, I was doing fine and having a great time until I started playing chess and was asked about The Mistress by my brother in kink!
I drank a lot of wine talking about Her! A lot! I miss Her so much, I thought this would be easier not being in touch while I wait for Her. It isn’t! It’s way worse as I just wait for Her to contact me, when She might never ever again!
I like my sister, way too much and the closer I get to her the more I realise that it can never be. We sat playing chess and I looked over at The Girl who was watching me and my heart just sank thinking about them both. I can never start anything with them as I could not continue it, and I never like to start something I can’t continue. And, I no longer am the type for a one night stand regardless of how long I have gone without some form of sexual comfort!
I want one thing and one thing only! To belong to Her and no one else! If She never takes me on I don’t know what I will do then but for now, I am Hers and Hers alone.
P.s. I was carried into the car last night and think I should perhaps lay off the drink for a while! I missed a BBQ today due to a hangover! Sigh