I took the day off yesterday to enjoy my most favorite day of the year. I had a lie in until 7, ate breakfast and then just chilled! Until I received a text from The Mistress asking if I was doing anything that evening! I wasn’t as I was waiting for something good to happen!
I spent a nice couple of hours chatting with her, she is so lovely. We spoke about difference between sub/slave and I know that I have been acting like a sub. But here is the thing! I have not been behaving like I know I would if she were my Mistress! I was not aware of the true implications of being under consideration, however it’s a moot point now as circumstances for the Mistress make it impossible for her to take me on just now as she wouldn’t be able to give me 100% anyway. But here is the thing and I think the difference in my mind about all of this! I wouldn’t care if she couldn’t, even a minute a day of her time would be so amazing!
I would like to have the opportunity despite everything, to try again to make her happy. It’s all I can think of is making her smile! How silly is that? I want to make her happy and smile at me because I was the one who made her happy. The more time I spend with her, the more sure I am she is a right fit for me. But, I need to stop thinking like that and imagining myself at her feet.
Sooooo, that wasn’t all that happened yesterday! 3 pieces of my work were accepted as part of The Erotic Arts Festival to be held in Edinburgh 22-24th June!!!!!!! It’s so so exciting! My good friend Molly from Mollysdailykiss has also had her work accepted! I almost cried with joy in reading the email which I had been looking for as there had been a tweet to say everyone had been emailed!
I wanted to tell the Mistress but it was already late and she didn’t reply to my text until this morning, otherwise I would’ve called her! Yes, me wanting to call someone!
So, miracles and wonderful things do happen to me on Friday 13th, what will happen on 13th July I wonder??????